Today, I was contemplating the idea of relationships. Is it a basic human necessity? I don’t really know. For me, it seems as though the idea of a relationship (in the case of having a significant other) sounds like a good idea but in practice, it never seems to work? Is it that I’m immature? Not ready for a relationship? I don’t know what I want? I don’t really know.
I was telling Georgina about how I’m not a relationship kind of person. Not because I try to be. It’s more like I get bored because of my “ADD” or some sort of attention disorder. Maybe I might have such a disorder but the problem seems to be: no guy can keep up with me. I want someone to keep me on my toes, to challenge make, to make me keep working: mentally, emotionally, physically, whatever. I want to grow from a relationship and I want to feel like the other person is doing the same. I want to change into the person I envision myself. Unfortunately, most guys that I have meet are only interested in the sexual and physical aspect.
Who really wants to have a conversation nowadays? We’re in college, we should enjoy the experience and not allow ourselves to be tied down?
Yeah, I want a fucking experience but I don’t want to just have a fucking experience. I want someone to probe the very idea and notion of my existence.
