October 2011
1 post
who takes time to read shit like this anyways.
I don’t know what to write. I don’t want to say. I’m just simply going to rant about what I want to do with my life, what I want to do with the frustrations that I have. I’m not sure if this is going to go anywhere. It simply is a rant. That’s all. I can go on about through this preface but I simply do not have the energy to go in great detail about it. I’m simply just going to do it. Time to put...
June 2011
1 post
I am the Phoenix.
Friend: OMG! You cut your hair?!
Me: Yeah, I did. -____-
Friend: Why?
Me: I had a Britney moment. I hated the world and I said fuck this shit. I started to chop my hair then buzzed it. It had a healing presence for me. I was letting go of my attachments to my hair and embraced more of myself regardless of the hair everyone knew me for. I felt like I was reborn into a new creature, like a...
April 2011
1 post
January 2011
4 posts
July 2010
6 posts
“The ultimate end of all revolutionary change is to establish the sanctity of...”
– Emma Goldman
“All war is deception.”
– Sun Tzu - Sometimes, the war we fight is with ourselves. Sometimes, we deceive ourselves. Sometimes, it’s better to live the lie than engage in reality. That’s why we are at war with ourselves.
rethinking misappropriation. →
“These are things that solidarity alone can never communicate.”
No matter how much you support or try to understand what an individual has gone through and vice versa, you will never know the experience. That’s why I hate it when people portray the queer coming out experience or even the Pilipin@ immigration experience as something that was easy. As a queer immigrant Pilipino, I...
the official start of my blogging adventures.
so i’m trying to find a way to not only kill time but document my thoughts. what better way then a blog. yeah. i could write in a damn journal but who is going to hold me accountable. & help boost my ego. (hahaha, just kidding.)
but seriously. i don’t know where this is going to go. i might talk about pilipin@ issues here in America and across the globe. if there are lgbtqia...
May 2010
2 posts
1 tag
Why would you replace me :[
Who are you? I don’t replace anyone. We grow apart but I don’t intentionally replace you. Let’s grab coffee whoever this is and catch up?
Ask me anything
when you meet someone that you can’t live without.
don’t fuck up.
& let them go.
April 2010
2 posts
“Freedom is actually a bigger game than power. Power is about what you can...”
– Harriet Rubin
You’ve just changed my view on power. Why control something limited when you can create what’s limitless?
“Loving yourself in a world of hate is the most radical, the most political thing...”
– Before I can love another person, I have to love myself. I guess I have to be lonely for a little.
March 2010
10 posts
m.entally i.rritating g.etting r.idiculously...
as i sit on my bed typing this blog at around 11:11 PM, i ponder upon the thought of how much i have lost because of this. this “migraine.” this parasite that forces me to sleep 95% of the day because the very glimmer of light, the softest sound, all lead to only pain for my brain as it edges to an implosion that will leave me in a vegetative state. i hate it. it’s been about 9...
insomnia. thought process. oh my!
it’s not something i necessarily hate. it’s something that i experience and it makes it difficult not only to go to sleep but due its very nature, function in society with energy and vigor that i usually allow myself to be.
hmm…so i don’t really know where i am going with this. i think there are plenty of things that i want to say on topics that don’t relate exactly...
all nighters.
are a pain.
it’s my fault for allowing myself to get far behind.
no i’m dealing with no sleep.
a final in a couple of hours.
& nauseousness.
ughh.
“your body is a temple”
– hmmm…
i always dwell on this quote.
i don’t know if i could say it holds true for me.
since the way i see it is…
yeah, your body is a temple but
you are not yet perfect.
you are not yet you.
you have yet to become the individual that you are meant to be.
(whatever that...
1 tag
why the effe did u watch alice without me? :( lol...
ahh!! twist of fate. we’ll watch other movies together!
Ask me anything
1 tag
uggh i have a midterm in a few hours but me...
lol. i love you red! you’re awesome too. i’m glad you’re my friend. =)
Ask me anything
Alice in Wonderland
i watched it today.
i thoroughly enjoyed it.
it was a very interesting moral that i was left it.
or rather, a lesson you would say.
i feel like everything is talking to me.
because i am finally listening to the instinctive voice within.
self-determination.
it was the entire movie.
she is not “hardly alice” anymore but rather almost the full alice.
& that no one can tell...
1 tag
How come you ignore me now?
Who is this? I didn’t know I was ignoring you but we can resolve that. ;)
Ask me anything
“it goes goes on.”
– robert frost once said these words. i don’t know the context for this phrase but it speaks to me in this manner, that things happen and we must get past it. move on and take action.
to get past something is not forget it about. rather, it is an acceptance that it has happened but how are we...
Self Determination - Using your Power
“Our lives are defined by the decisions we make each day. When we choose one option over another, whether we are selecting a restaurant or considering a cross-country move, we shape our lives. The decision-making process can be empowering, allowing us to enjoy the benefits of self-determination. Yet it can also be a source of anxiety because decisions force us to face the possibility of...
January 2010
1 post
if i ain't got you...
i miss my dad…
December 2009
2 posts
ask me a question or two.
http://www.formspring.me/janskie
kind of sad...
this is pretty passive.
but i guess…
i can’t believe you think of me that way. i’m not broken glass. i’m just a little broken. but is it the glass’s fault that the owner dropped him. that he weathered through so many times of being washed and abused. left outside in the rain. left dirty. the glass might not be the perfect glass in the world but he’s trying to...
September 2009
2 posts
eulogy.
i’m not writing. i’m listening to music. recollecting my memories. trying to figure out what to say. you don’t realize how much you truly love someone until they are gone. it’s hard. to put my feelings out. because i did and i do love you. when you were here and now that you are gone. you took care of me. you put up with me when i call you my maid. you took care of me...
sick.
take it as you want it.
i can’t breath right now.
body warm.
migraine.
i want to feel better.
August 2009
1 post
"your body is a temple."
unfortunately, i haven’t been treating it as such.
i feel so dirty.
but, just the idea of it.
i don’t feel ashamed.
i don’t feel anything.
it’s really kind of confusing.
sometimes i wish i cared.
6 months.
July 2009
3 posts
Galang. Mahal.
Ponderings…damn these intersections in our identities. Why do we individuals have to be so multifaceted? Why are we plagued by different aspects of our lives constantly coming to collision and conflict?
I want to love you, but the fact that I do not respect you, that you made me a mental case makes it difficult. I am estranged, from that fact, that the verbal abuse has made this way. The...
SP Archives…
History. Living & breathing, in paper, coming to life to engulf me into a recollection of memories. I find myself connecting the lines of SP now to then. The social aspect of Samahang is pivotal because of this was key to its founding.
Jennifer Tolentino. Samahang Pilipino. Social. Interviews. Headache.
If you ever wanted to read about SP History, copies of the oral...
“The great aim of education is not knowledge but action.”
- Herbert Spencer
It’s questionable…that is, all things are. Even if they are firm and solid beliefs of one, another person can easily wonder why I would believe this. Ultimately, I think this is one of the many results of education and the one that I feel all should follow. Why keep the knowledge that you gain...
June 2009
1 post
